All I'd Have

 I have no more time for your labyrinth All the lies I can't keep straight Used to dream about life in your palace But all this running I can't keep pace


Had a dream I came back, you made effort
But I know that's the last thing I would choose.
I don't want a life alone with you
Baby, I don't play games that set me up to loose

You're all I would have
Alone and sad and searching for myself
You're all I would have
Don't want a life spent dusty on your shelf

I broke free but it feels underwhelming
Some days spent scared and confused
So many times I screamed why couldn't you hear me
You were supposed to help me but I just feel used

You're all I would have
Alone and sad and searching for myself
You're all I would have
Don't want a life spent dusty on your shelf


I wanted you
You wanted me
I lied because you lied to me
Most days you're all that I could see
Despite the fire in the trees
I ran to you
You ran from me
Wanting something that could never be
And once I stopped I finally see
All the harm you meant for me

So lets get one thing straight
You're the last thing that I would choose
I deserve more than for you to tolerate
Everything that I stood to loose


You're all I would have
Alone and sad and searching for myself
You're all I would have
Don't want a life spent dusty on your shelf






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